A (novice) Model's Diary

#Image #Beauty #Confidence #modelling #Insidertruth

So, I've been a bit stuck lately...in trying to figure out what interesting article I could write you guys. I obviously refuse to become that sort of blogger who daily updates you on what food I had for dinner, but that means I also have to come up with something good once I actually do write.

I was asking myself the other day, what would I have liked to read the most, back in the day when the days were careless and lazily spent scrolling down another person's words and composition of sentences (that might actually have been yesterday). It clicked probably as quickly as I'll retweet any tweet by a celebrity doing a little bit of "taking from the rich (pockets) and giving to the poor" - and I decided I would give you some inside scoop on the very bespoken modelling industry!

Unfortunately I can't be your 'Gossip Girl'; first of all because I don't have minions, but also because I'm no famous model. I'm not even a high end model. To be honest, I'm just starting to get comfortable calling myself a model - a title I can now use after becoming a Beauty (can I use the word 'Catwalk' instead? It'd make me less uncomfortable) Queen, having had a couple paid modelling jobs and being registered with a few agencies.

Comfortable...that's the keyword for this article. Whether you have a regular 9-5 job and are looking at models and superstars in magazines, or if you actually are a model or superstar, being comfortable in your own skin is just as complicated in one career as the other.

Some time ago a friend posted a link on my Facebook and said that that my blog reminded him of this model's speech:

#TheIndustry @CameronCRussell #TEDtalk

I think what Cameron Russel says about beauty and image is incredible important to take in. Getting into the modelling industry islike winning the lotto, but more like winning the ticket of a self-image circus. You're no longer answering to what looks you yourself think is beautiful, and at times not even what the industry thinks is beautiful. To repeat something I've heard over and over: the industry will hire the looks the clients want - and as a #PR student I know the client will always hire the looks which sells; meaning according to what the customers wants. So when you're working in the modelling industry, your looks is suddenly categorised as pretty enough or not the correct look by the million people labelled as consumers. No pressure at all, it's not like they got different views on beauty...


Credit: Google search image

What happens when the model don't have the right look (I won't say "isn't pretty enough" as no man or woman should ever say that about themselves or others)? They don't get the job. It goes to someone else because it's a lotto-industry with a lot of players. On this basis, I plead to all you lovely readers that you will not share those links going around about how #Photoshop is creating #unrealisticbeautystandards. It's not correct and there are beautiful people (Yes, someone can look like the walking image of a greek-goddess candy-on-a-stick, but beauty doesn't necessarily equal an easier life) who have been incredible lucky to get the assignments they have, Make-up artists who have spent possibly hours getting the right look and Photographers spending just as long getting the right gear up and in the right angle. I have to take the whole day off from everything else whenever I go on a shoot, that's how long time it may take. Don't give Photoshop the credit for that, and even worse; don't take the acknowledgements away from those who deserve it.

I'm not saying Photoshop is not used, but today I personally find there's little difference in the filter the industry uses and the filter you put on your Instagram pictures. I once took a photo with a photographer where my belly showed. I've always been very conscious of my belly and I told him this. He photoshopped the belly so thin that I looked like a proper carved out hour glass. I set my foot down and refused him to ever use the picture, but that's the one and only extreme incident I've ever had with Photoshop in the industry.

Like Cameron Russel demonstrated in her TED talk, there are two sides to a model - the one you see on glossy paper and the one you see in real life. Many people want to get into the modelling industry because modelling photos makes you believe it's been captured at a natural moment, in a natural setting, and that you, the model, thus have to be glamorous 24/7. Well...here is my own version of Russel's roulette:

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Oh yeah...I'm also one of those awfully self-conscious when at a shoot.




(All filters as seen on the portfolio pictures - except the black/white & sepia ones - are added by me myself)

During a photoshoot, I'll be imagining myself to be a superstar on 10% of the pictures, on 30% I have the energy and patience of a two year old, and on the remaining 60% I'm so self-consciously that the picture above happens. At least I know how to make a joke out of myself, ey...

Comfortable...being confident. The answer doesn't lie in being a model. Becoming a model is not going to give anyone the proclamation they need that they, not just look, but are beautiful; it's not going to make the world say it and it's not going to make the boys mean it. The things becoming a model have taught me is to appreciate those moments I can be myself around the people who like me for who I am and to recognise boys who think you don't see the connection between your new photos coming out and their green light turning on.

Being a model is only an image:
"To me, beauty is about being comfortable in your own skin. It's about knowing and accepting who you are" - Ellen DeGeneres @TheEllenShow

I'm not ungrateful for the opportunities I have received (I love the jobs and the environment), but also not naive to the less glamorous parts of the job;I don't have anything against a natural size 0 nor size pluss #endbodyshame - only if it's the result of unhealthy eating;I won't make any excuses for the industry, I can only be the role model that is my duty to become; the pressure is there whether you're an insider or an outisder; I try not to be a slave to what others think of me, but strive to learn to be confident and pleased with who I am - like everyone should and deserves to be. It's up to ourselves to seperate between what's visual and what's real, and by changing our own attitudes we can change the society.

Note:I don't know if this article will be the first 'Novice Model' entry with more to follow or if this will be the only one. Leave your opinion below regarding whether or not you would like me to keep writing insider treats!

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Navn

18.03.2014 kl.22:47

fy. faen fint bilde i grase!

C. Qvam

19.03.2014 kl.00:18

Navn: Tusen takk for det!

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22, Kristiansund

Currenly a Masters student at Cardiff University in Wales studying International PR and Global Communication Management. My life ambitions is to travel around the world, do volunteering in the field and become a published author.Feel free to browse through all my categories and articles, stay tuned for more updates! <3

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